If you’re a Change Circle member, or if you’ve clicked the ‘Readings’ tab of this site lately, you’ll already know this: I’ve stopped giving I Ching readings. The I Ching Community remains – definitely no plans to close that – as do the various downloads and the full I Ching Course, so for many visitors this shouldn’t affect your use of the site too much.
What am I doing instead? Thank you for asking. I don’t know. At present, I’m leaving myself a lot of space for ideas to arise, and not going running after them.
I was guided along this path by a combination of readings, helpful people, and slow, slow realisations. If nothing else, it’s given me some insight into how these things can work together. Nothing would’ve happened (except a continuing slow slither down into complete incapacity) without the friend who first mentioned ‘burnout’. Oh, I thought, this has a name, this inability to do even the basics… it’s a real thing…
Then I started talking with Yi, and then – through a bunch of readings I shared in Reading Circle – it told me in utterly unambiguous terms that I needed not just to have a break, but to stop altogether. In a state of complete shock and dismay, I stopped, and then people and books and very, very slow inner processes helped me to understand why I’d needed to. Dreams and synchronicities are joining in, too: I’ve started remembering my dreams again, and I had a great time the other night rejoining a class of ten-year-olds.
My time as a working diviner was wonderful and extraordinary – I always called it the best job in the world, and I still don’t know of a better one – and it’s come to its natural close. Thanks, everyone.
always good to put aside what’s passed…
i’ve been living just down the road, in marlborough, WILTS, and had been thinking of contacting you, but…
and now it’s time for me to leave too
i really like your ‘I’ and your site. thank you
A surprise but not a shock. Doing readings by phone must be terribly difficult. But in the process you’ve tuned your psyche to a greater sensitivity that can serve you in whatever your new path may turn out to be. I hope you’ll continue to share your insights occasionally on this blog,
Yunshou – I’m enjoying your site very much, too. Thanks for the link.
Fyreflye… it’s odd. The readings weren’t difficult in themselves – each individual reading was energising, if anything – and yet somehow or other, overall, it wasn’t right for me any more.
Yes, there will be more posts. Lots of idea-lets have been sprouting lately, and I’ll try to post them all.
Hi Hilary – really sorry to hear you’re not doing the professional readings any more. I’m glad you are looking after yourself though. It must be good having the freedom and energy to do enjoyable things once again?
Best regards
Justin
Thanks. And yes, energy is coming back, and it’s good.
Its also great to hear that you are carrying on with the website. Its always good reading new blog posts, especially. Thanks, Hilary, for sharing your experience and knowledge.
Hi Hilary,
On reading this post it occurred to me that you may have a similar problem my dad had when he became a healer. He was using his energy and not channelling energy. Once he learnt to channel energy his personal energies improved and he became a better healer!
If my theory is correct then while you have been working with and using the I Ching you have been using up your own ‘chi’ hence you have become “burned out”.
My advice is to learn how to channel your energies and if possible get your nearest and dearest to also learn how to channel. Who will then be able to help you recharge.
I can help you learn to channel but as I live on Ottawa, Canada it may be more practical if you can find someone local.
Please let me know if I can be of any help.
Michael, I think you’re absolutely right. It’s not quite the same thing as healing, but the basics are much the same: my bucket was empty and I was too busy turning it upside down and shaking it to remember how to take it down to the ocean for a refill.
I don’t know whether one day I’ll be back to doing individual readings. There may turn out to be something better…